3 : Xander Cage

“Broken not obsolete”

He was a confident lad. No, he is a confident lad. A lad who dares to try almost anything regardless of the chances of failure and/or embarrassment – this is something lavessa admires about him. He rejects weakness of any kind, his entire being just resonating the energies of the typical “alpha male” though he isn’t all that intimidating believe it or not. This man, despite how strong he or anyone else may think he is, seeks constant comfort. More specifically he feels he can’t be himself without the comfort of another woman.

To make a long story short: he got his heart and mind f#cked up by somebody in the past and that’s left him with the need to fill the missing space of somebody even if for a moment, and really and truly all those who followed somebody were just that. Moments. He uses these moments for his own personal gain in hopes of finding his self and his purpose once again. Each moment never offers him anything long term or worthwhile only short lived pleasure..and a headache. As much as these moments jar him he still refuses to let any of them go and continues to juggle them all simultaneously, complicating things further. He’s never really been able to explain why he can’t be without his moments. It’s almost like a built in desire of his that he barely has any control over.

Despite the fact that somebody brought so much negative drama into his life he appreciated the messed up relationship that they had because it was the most genuine thing in his life at the time. It just worked. I think to this day he still finds himself missing old somebody at the most random of times and can’t handle the thought of them enjoying a life without him in it. Frustration takes over at times like this and so he continues to drown himself in a sea of moments and false ideals of love to keep his mind away from such things, slowly losing himself in the process.

All is not completely lost though, not to worry, this lad is trying to be the person that he used to be..to be even better than that person in fact. Lavessa is patiently waiting for the day she can see him smile and really mean it but for now she is glad to see that he is finally trying to live for himself in a truer way than he was before

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